Made it through No Fun February without drinking diet coke and I am both proud of myself and so happy that it’s March now
Hoping to get my masters in counseling!
Grad school is definitely a necessity for forward motion in my life, but it is a huge investment of time and money (dear god so much money.)
I came out to CA knowing I’d want to do it eventually but not sure on the timing of it. When it came down to it, getting together a bunch of grad school apps while getting settled into a new home and job and life felt like way too much, so I’m only applying to one program. If I don’t get in, then I’ll reevaluate and reapply to a bunch of programs next year. Just kinda letting life take me places in a way that has minimal amounts of unnecessary pressure, ya know?
Good luck in school!
Weight loss is a weird thing, because when your goal weight is far away you have this model mentality about being skinny, and then once you get there, you’ve still got the same body type you had before, its just…smaller.
The further I get from the biggest I was, its harder to remember how far I’ve come, and therefore easier to get discouraged about my shape, if that makes any sense. Not to say I don’t think I’m a total babe at least like, 95% of the time, but occasionally I fall victim to the constant onslaught of images of tiny tiny women that we’re all subjected to daily.
Maintenance is a weird place to be in, because even though I could go down a bit, and could tone up a bit (and am hoping to do so) not much is going to change from here as far as overall size and shape goes. Which is weird and hard to wrap my brain around. It’s not always the easiest to feel 100% okay with being on the curvier end of healthy.
I’ve spent this morning looking at old photos of myself, there arent a ton of me at my biggest (because I was the saddest ever and avoided cameras like the plague) but I scrounged up some before and after pictures, and I’m gonna post em here, because I think its good to remind myself of where I’ve been, and how far I’ve come, especially on days where I’m feeling a bit discouraged. Because at the end of the day, I’m healthier and happier than ever, and a few photos of skinny ladies on tumblr shouldnt take that away from me.
Reposting because it’s easy to forget and important to remember.
Isn’t it just like, so good to know that cat ladies have been around making cat lady content since the early 1900’s?
I’m a nanny for a lovely family with two precious littles. I’m currently applying to graduate school so hopefully in the near future I will be a nanny and a student because not being in school combined with hanging out with a two year old for 50 hours a week is possibly making my brain disintegrate
My roommate’s cat is a terrorist/an aggressive non consensual french kisser
Do you like cats/are you a cat? If so we can probably be best friends.
I’m in year 3 (4?) of maintenance, so at this stage in the game I can go ‘off plan,’ and still be pretty on it. I eat a lot of the same stuff, am rarely tricked by things that you might think are healthy but aren’t, and know my way around a grocery store without a points calculator. Not tracking has been tricky but doable, it definitely just requires a LOT more willpower.
I’m not against counting or tracking (statistically speaking, people who keep track of what they eat lose more weight than people who dont,) it just isn’t where I am right now in my life and I’m trying to give it a go without it. When I’ve been actively trying to lose and especially when I first started and didn’t really know the parameters of my body (the hows and whats and whys of it doing the things that it did in relation to what I was putting into it,) tracking and counting were just what I needed to help me understand the right kinds of foods. As in what makes me feel most energized and what is kind of worthless and how much I can splurge and how much I shouldn’t.
If you’re donezo with numbers and tracking but what to stay on Weight Watchers (for the record, I really and truly do endorse it and love it and think if its done the right way can be such a positive sensible thing and oh so healthy,) then you should try their non counting plan called Simply Filling, where they just give you a list of good foods and you eat from that (you still get flex points.) This is probably closest to how I eat now, from a set group of foods that I know are good with occasional allowances for treats.
I wrote you an essay and for that I apologize. Hope it helps!
Good luck! <3